Alhamdulillah, it is my 7th day in headscarf. One week has gone by and I have quite adapted myself to the change. I'm sure I wouldn't have done it without the strength from Allah s.w.t. and not a day goes by that I do not thank Him for this privilege and honour.
To be honest, I have never felt so comfortable. That feeling of uneasiness in my own skin practically vanished the moment I put on the headscarf. I feel confident and happy and beautiful (which is a plus point). I believe that when someone does this in the name of Allah s.w.t, physical beauty is nought when your "nur" is the one that shines forth overcoming your physical insecurities and (dare I say it) defects.
Makes me think, if only I had done this a whole lot earlier!
But... no regrets. For whatever that I've gone through, whatever I have done, whatever I didn't do, this is how I would learn from it and be my own person. I mean, I wasn't an awfully bad person to begin with but neither was I a very good person. And I am no where close to being a really good person let alone a pious one. But I believe being sorry that I was ignorant enough (and still ignorant) to do those not so good things even in my own omission is the only way I could mend myself to be a better person and a better Muslim, Insyaallah.
Anyways, I am still very much excited. Not jaded and still at peace with my decision. It is one of the best decisions I've made for myself so far and I hope and pray that God willing it will remain so for many years to come.