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I'm (Not) Ready...

Panic mode came on during the weekend when I was practicing at home. I was suddenly struck with the fear that I will have it done all wrong every time, everyday. Not to mention that all that I have learned I have pretty much forgotten and ended up doing all of it "my way". And then the thought dawned on me that I am probably just not ready for this...

Then I took a good look at myself and kept on practicing and practicing. I kept up with it so that I wouldn't give up. I practiced till the wee small hours of the morning. I practiced till I felt a headache was looming over. I was determined to find a way that it would be comfortable and presentable. To find a method where I am sure that I could cover all angles and have freedom of movement. I suppose you could say that I really went all out on my creativity (even though I might end up forgetting how to do it the next time around). I really just did not want to give in to the temptation to say "I'm not ready", because that's just taking the easy way out.

In the end, I figured, "You know what... As long as it's all following the basic conditions, I should be fine. I WILL do this!"

2 days to go till D-Day and the revelation! Insyaallah...


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