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Here's a question... the heck does one go from being "just close friends" to "seeing each other"? hahaha...

For me in particular, this is like an age old question that has never ever been answered. I mean, I could've had a few boyfriends in my life already but because I can't see over the huge bump in front of me, I can't tell what's on the other side or even dare to get past it. It's like going on a rollercoster ride and just when you're at the top point of the ride before the huge rush, you come to equilibrium instead. I have oft times reach this and then go, "Umm... now what?"

So now, I don't want to be there anymore. It gets tiring because of all that you've put in just to get things moving and then the ride is prematurely terminated? Wow... how much more can I take?? The suspense, although not killing me, is driving me IN-sane. I mean, I'm pret-ty sure there's something there but I don't know if it will move forward. GOD, if you're hearing this, please let me not be in the dark for long. Thanks!

Anyways, today's my beloved Mammo's 69th birthday. She gets more radiant and gorgeous with each passing year and am SO SO SO blessed to have her as my Mum. We're 41-years apart but she's a fantastic person to converse with and somehow so open-minded you'd tell her anything and she'd soon enough wrap her mind around it (after the brief initial shock, of course. Haha!).

So Happy Birthday, Mak Dearest. I love you SOOOOOOO much and here's to many, many, many more years to come. May Allah bless you ALWAYS!! <3 <3


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