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Showing posts from December, 2010

Waking Up from a Nightmare

I had just woken up from a horrible nightmare. And I can't sleep now. Ugh... I hate 'paranormal themed' nightmares. It just creeps me out! Especially when I rarely get them. And I mean truly rarely.

I'd only started having these creepy dreams around last year, right about the time when I started to be on my own. Previously it would just be dreams where I would see something scary and wake up in a fright. But starting last year, the dreams were quite 'real', as in I could 'feel' it. Like being crushed under a heavy weight or touched/grazed by 'it'. Don't ask me what 'it' is...

Tonight is one such dream and it was stressing me in my sleep. I woke up wanting scream for my mom! But I also forced my mouth to move and sound up with 'Astaghfirullahalazim' and continued on to read the Qursi verses. It was that state of atrophy which makes it so hard to get my mouth to move and my limbs to function. For a moment, I couldn't remem…

A miracle occured today!

I have come to terms with lost memories of happy occurances in my life for a while now, especially when my laptop of 7 years crashed one fine day, erasing just about EVERYTHING in it's memory bank. Thankfully, I managed to salvage some data that were saved in the C drive after sending my computer for repair is ComDoc. Otherwise, I lost it all - my photos from my trip to Perth in 2008, photos of friend's weddings, birthdays, Uni days, my MUSIC! Gosh... it was heartbreaking.

But for some reason, I told myself it was a blessing in disguise so that I won't be forever mulled by the past and to start making new memories. That was when I bought an external hardisk that's big enough to store all my crap in. I mean come on, pendrives are just TOO small at times and not to mention that it sometimes goes totally bonkers after a while.

After that was invested, I started transferring just about everything I had into my external hardisk and was oh so happy to have ample space to m…